My week has looked a little like this…
And I’ve written a few different versions of small change, tried them on, and they didn’t feel right.
I’ve been dealing with some health things and my brain isn’t working all that well.
I’d scaled back over the last few weeks, optimising that last 40% … 30% … 20% of energy that’s been fuelling my client work (and this thang 🥰) but when I was reflecting on what I really wanted to say today, nothing but “I’ll be back” felt quite right.
So, I’ll be back.
🖤 Pushing forward, doing great things - that bit is easy.
🖤 Pressing pause, looking after ourselves - that’s the hard stuff.
We’re not conditioned to believe there is honour or pride in taking a step back. We celebrate fighting against all odds, running into the fire, triumph against adversity.
Now, there is no fire, no adversity and the odds haven’t suddenly stacked against me.
I just need to take a minute.
I need to take a step back so that I can take a nice big leap forward.
…It’s the last thing I want to do.
And if you’re on my mailing list, I know that you fight with this too.
Putting ourselves first feels highly inconvenient.
It feels uncomfortable.
But it’s the most responsible and courageous thing we can do.
And as one final act of defiance…
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For those who’ve recently joined us (welcome!! /awkward timing). But we’ve been running this small change newsletter every week for over three months without skipping a beat, so go back in time here.
See ya on the other side,
Amber
Every day I’m balancing
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My dear friend Deeba has your back. I’ve had the honour of being by her [virtual] side as she’s poured her heart, soul and beautiful mind into creating a guide to help you gain clarity and cut out the noise.
From burnout to marathon in 12 months
On the 28th April 2019 I ran the London marathon, 12 months prior I struggled to walk. If you felt the absence of the big race last weekend, jump into my blog archives to read about the build-up to my first 26.2.
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